Wheels in my head...

 ...the wheels in my head are turning...

...the emotions within me are stirring...

...im not blind,

...im not deaf,

...feeling stupid...

...i am fuming...

...tears running down my face,

... my eyes burning...

...cant help it...

... this heart inside my chest is hurting...

(not sure when I wrote this...)

forever doesn't last...

you loved me
and i loved you
we were together
 i thought forever
i saw you , i saw me
old and gray
with kids at play
we were one
and in love
love is gone?
no longer here?
no love left, to give, i fear
tears i've shed
tears iv'e bled
tears of lost unknown years
we could of shared
as a pair
forever gone? forever killed?
i saw  us together
happy forever
you loved me
and i loved you
we were together
 i thought forever

He consumes me...

Naive girl... you think your safe... you think your ok...
he invites you in... the spider... inviting the fly... come in... dont be afraid.. and why should you be... she trusts you... you listen to him... you hear him... you think he's a nice spider... but once he lures you in... youre weary... he kisses you softly... you think its ok.... his lips... soft .. gentle... kind and sweet ...you realize youre alone ... you tell him to stop ...but he wont... his smile turns into a joke.. whats so funny??? he caught you... he tricked you.... he will devour you... she struggles.. she fights.. her voice, is but a meager whistle... why??? he's body becomes a weapon.... to hurt.. to hold captive.... you want to scream but nothing comes out... he is eating your soul.. and there is not a damn thing you can do about it... no CRIME???? no crime??? he consumed her inner soul... yet you say he has done NOTHING???? she thought she was safe.... her innocence... LOST...

he consumed her...

One of those Days...

When all I think of is you...

When all i wanna do is be with you..

When all I see reminds me of you...

When all i hear is your voice whispering in my ear..

When all I feel is the pain from losing you...

When all i wanna do is stay in bed and cry all day...

When i wish i could tear this beating heart from my chest...

When i struggle with the need to call you every second of this day..

When i hope with all my heart and soul that you still loved me...

Its One Of Those Days my love...

When I Forget to Forget about you...

Its One Of Those Days...

Written 1/01/2008 

What kills me...

is knowing you are here...

knowing i cant look up at you...
your changing eyes and smiling face.

knowing i cant call you...
hear your voice and loving praise.

knowing i cant hug you...
feel your arms and warm embrace.


knowing i cant kiss you...
feel your lips and minty taste.


knowing you no longer feel anything for me..

This kills me.


Written on 01/04/2008

Tears of Mine

Tears

Tears of sadness...
Tears of pain...
Tears of lost chances...
Tears of not living...

Tears always seem to find me...
no matter how hard i try to hide..
Am I never gonna be free to live my llife
free of TEARS...

It feels like a pent up thunderstorm...
Maybe I should just stop trying to control it...
and let it go...
Let the storm out...
let it pour...
let it do what its suppose to...
stop taking cover and let it be...

Stop pretending its not raining...
Stop pretending youre all right...
Just stop...

Now I remember why I hate the rain. . .

At Least... One Day...

At least I can say 90 percent of what i feel is hate...

At least I can say I no longer go on thinking every second of every minute of every day, since that day, about you...

At least I can say Ive had quite a few great days since you...

At least I can say I'm willing to consider the possibility of falling in love, once again.

But...


One day I hope to feel 100 percent of indifference...

One day I hope to be able to say I don't think of you at all...

One day I hope EVERY day will be a great day...

One day I hope to fall in love and settle for nothing less...

Bloody Embrace

my arms embraced him as we met

my breath was warm against his neck

i did not know he'd strike a blow

quick and fast to my chest

he let me go and as i fell

on the floor i could not rest

i turned my head with heart in hand

he walked away without a glance

now he's gone

he left me here

all alone

bleeding tears...

Lizbeth Sanchez

Suffering

My heart suffers

my heart aches

my heart bleeds as it quakes



My heart slowly beats away

while it suffers

many pains



My heart listens to the cries

as it rips and tears inside

slowly dying from the fight

Lizbeth
 (wrote this back in July of 2005)

My Love... My Light... My Dark...

.. i think of love most constantly...
... to love and hate most frequently...
...my inner voice is but a dream...
... to see the light it feels a scheme...
... i fade away from his light and being...
... yet he is there. there's no believing....
... yet he is there the all known... seeing...
... to love and hate ... it means believing...

Unrequited Dream

I put my life on hold

For a story yet untold

Who knew that you’d unfold

a story, not my own


A true treasure I had wove

Words of love mighty, bold


Misguided child! Fool’s gold!


Here I am alone and cold

Again… again! Unconsoled

Who knew, not I, not foretold


a story never to behold

a story never to be more!

but just a dream and nothing more...

Lizbeth

Senses

you
over
power
my senses...
I SMELL your intoxicating scent...
captures my attention
I TOUCH the smooth surface of your skin...
love the way you feel
I TASTE the light caress of your lips...
sweet nectar
I SEE your eyes...
bask in the warmth of your blue sky's...
I HEAR you, and am content...
rhythmic baritone
of your voice...
I love
it.

Lizbeth Sanchez

Once again

the pain subsides
the heart's pain rests
that is until you see him
once again

laughter returns
melancholy fades
that is until you see him
once again

memories fade
they're in the past
that is until you see him
once again

and you remember that fatal wound
all the hurt
the pain returns...

all because you saw him...
once again

Lizbeth Sanchez

Letting Go

I wrote this back in January of 2004'

i'm not healing as i should
my hearts not mending as it could
it seems to be breaking more and more
i have yet to reach that final goal...
of letting go

Lizbeth Sanchez