Wheels in my head...

 ...the wheels in my head are turning...

...the emotions within me are stirring...

...im not blind,

...im not deaf,

...feeling stupid...

...i am fuming...

...tears running down my face,

... my eyes burning...

...cant help it...

... this heart inside my chest is hurting...

(not sure when I wrote this...)

One of those Days...

When all I think of is you...

When all i wanna do is be with you..

When all I see reminds me of you...

When all i hear is your voice whispering in my ear..

When all I feel is the pain from losing you...

When all i wanna do is stay in bed and cry all day...

When i wish i could tear this beating heart from my chest...

When i struggle with the need to call you every second of this day..

When i hope with all my heart and soul that you still loved me...

Its One Of Those Days my love...

When I Forget to Forget about you...

Its One Of Those Days...

Written 1/01/2008 

What kills me...

is knowing you are here...

knowing i cant look up at you...
your changing eyes and smiling face.

knowing i cant call you...
hear your voice and loving praise.

knowing i cant hug you...
feel your arms and warm embrace.


knowing i cant kiss you...
feel your lips and minty taste.


knowing you no longer feel anything for me..

This kills me.


Written on 01/04/2008

Tears of Mine

Tears

Tears of sadness...
Tears of pain...
Tears of lost chances...
Tears of not living...

Tears always seem to find me...
no matter how hard i try to hide..
Am I never gonna be free to live my llife
free of TEARS...

It feels like a pent up thunderstorm...
Maybe I should just stop trying to control it...
and let it go...
Let the storm out...
let it pour...
let it do what its suppose to...
stop taking cover and let it be...

Stop pretending its not raining...
Stop pretending youre all right...
Just stop...

Now I remember why I hate the rain. . .

Bloody Embrace

my arms embraced him as we met

my breath was warm against his neck

i did not know he'd strike a blow

quick and fast to my chest

he let me go and as i fell

on the floor i could not rest

i turned my head with heart in hand

he walked away without a glance

now he's gone

he left me here

all alone

bleeding tears...

Lizbeth Sanchez

Suffering

My heart suffers

my heart aches

my heart bleeds as it quakes



My heart slowly beats away

while it suffers

many pains



My heart listens to the cries

as it rips and tears inside

slowly dying from the fight

Lizbeth
 (wrote this back in July of 2005)

My Love... My Light... My Dark...

.. i think of love most constantly...
... to love and hate most frequently...
...my inner voice is but a dream...
... to see the light it feels a scheme...
... i fade away from his light and being...
... yet he is there. there's no believing....
... yet he is there the all known... seeing...
... to love and hate ... it means believing...

Unrequited Dream

I put my life on hold

For a story yet untold

Who knew that you’d unfold

a story, not my own


A true treasure I had wove

Words of love mighty, bold


Misguided child! Fool’s gold!


Here I am alone and cold

Again… again! Unconsoled

Who knew, not I, not foretold


a story never to behold

a story never to be more!

but just a dream and nothing more...

Lizbeth

Once again

the pain subsides
the heart's pain rests
that is until you see him
once again

laughter returns
melancholy fades
that is until you see him
once again

memories fade
they're in the past
that is until you see him
once again

and you remember that fatal wound
all the hurt
the pain returns...

all because you saw him...
once again

Lizbeth Sanchez